PiecesOfVenus

I hate censorship.
I get really pissed off at the portrayal of piracy as a horrible thing and not as a advertising and business tool.

I want to do two things. I’m going to tell stories through writing and comics and possibly animation, and I’m going to find a way to set an example, a standard, in business practices involving the internet and information sharing.

And I must be self-employed to do this. If not, my freedom to accomplish these two tasks will be compromised.

I wonder if that means that I’ll have to take business classes. Perhaps, but I need to become the artist that I need to become to tell my stories, and hopefully to mix both mediums, to use one to tell the other.

So I want to go to school for art. I need a few years to develop. And I need time to develop the business aspect. Perhaps a video game development company. That always interested me quite a darn bit.

I’m going to change the world. Hopefully I can be humble about it.

beatonna:

Happy Mother’s Day!

I often portray my mom as a timid lady, because she is so loving and sweet.  But she’s tough too, she tried very hard to give us every opportunity in a small place, without much.  My mother is the one who has believed in my abilities the longest, and the fiercest, and for that I owe her everything.

In this particular exchange, she also showed me that people’s talent may not always be what it appears to be to others, and that we all may have a greatness in us that not everyone can see.

Remember to call your mother today.  She loves you.

I’m falling behind in time spent experiencing and practicing my craft.

I think that it’s time to work on these things.

It’s time to become a mad scientist.

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My interests are very wide. This is horrible. It paralyses me.

But, I think I’ve narrowed it down to three things.

Software development (Programming) - Spare time should go into this. This will be my job eventually, so I have to also learn math and some sciences.

Story-writing - I will read books and complete a short story, looking at one short story every week, and a book per week as well would be optimistic as hell.

Drawing - I must warm up every morning before breakfast, and draw many things throughout the day. This also involves reading lots of comics and manga.

My physical activity of choice will be soccer two or three times per week. Once I’m in university for programming, I’ll be just skating every single day, hopefully.

My past-time will be watching three television shows per week, as well as three animes. Hockey games when possible, but these are my downtime things, when I feel sedate.

Previously, my interests were something more like this, working in tiers:

1.
Write consistently

2.
Draw as well as a disney animator
Computer hacking/defence/programming
Self-defence
Japanese
Piano
Hockey strategy/coaching
Read consistently

3.
Math/physics
German
Norwegian
Microbiology
Cooking
Song writing
Bass
Paint
History
Programming/Video game development
Neuropsychology
Psychology
Longevity
Crosswords
Photoshop/computer art

4.
Chemistry
Lock picking
Ojibway
Cutting own hair
Hunt/track
Effective firearm use
Understand basic business
Improve co-ordination
Electronic circuiting/wind energy generation
Acoustic
Cello
Synthesizer
Vocals
Minimize spending on traditional household bills
Adapt to a new sleep schedule to give more hours of wakefulness
Act efficiently
Give an interesting presentation
Get a dog
Diagnose mechanical problems (cars)
Chess/Strategy games
Origami
Stop snoring
Poker
Faceoffs
Body language

And I was getting nothing done. I still am. The internet is getting in the way. I’m kind of addicted to the internet. I need to limit my internet usage to… Watching Raocow’s Let’s Plays in the morning over breakfast, reading the news and what’s happening in hockey and the world using only Google News and TSN, reading Twitter, and reading Facebook more sparingly. And finally, talking to my friends only, which amounts mostly to talking to Shailah all the time. That should be my reward at the end of the day for a job well done. The internet and Shailah. Because she’s unreal.

I’m going to subscribe to a monthly Science Fiction and Fantasy fiction magazine called Analog. It’s like a bathroom reader. Keep up with new stuff.

Otherwise, I’ll be working on reading the books I have. I need to expand my literary knowledge, or else I’m going to just fail as a writer.

OKAY.

So.

I like changing plans pretty often.

I’ve been playing Skyrim lots.

I quit school.

I’m at my worst.

But this is the best starting point I have ever seen. I’ll not squander it.

I need to draw.

I need to learn math and programming.

And I need to draw comics. Like, I want to draw 16 to 20 pages per week, like a manga. Colorless, most of the time.

I have to write stories. Novel-sized. I need to develop them and keep writing them. I love it. I’m working on NaNoWriMo, and I’m in love with just working on it. I want that to be my life. I want comics to be my life.

But I need to do something more practical. And if I’m going to university, I’m going to take something really easy, like I don’t know, give me suggestions (business? education?), or something really hard, like Software Engineering (I’m trying to maybe get into this.)

I need time, but I need to make use of this time. It’s a finite amount.

So.

My grand-ma is likely in her deathbed.

My student loan application so that I can actually pay rent and school this year did not go through.

So yeah. Shit.

Still getting it together. I need about… five to seven hundred bucks right now. More later.

So damn cool. If you can simply launch stuff into a Lagrange Point from earth just like that, say hello to space colonies in a few generations. Going to have to clean up the junk from space though. Suddenly the great anime/manga Planetes seems so much more real. I’m nostalgic for a time that has not yet past.

If humanity gets off its fat ass and doesn’t kill itself first, which to me seems more likely. /pessimism

I keep thinking of the future.

How I lack practice and ability to be the artist I need to be.

What the end goal is.

And where in the hell do I find chicken soup for 50 cents.

I mean. I mean to create something, to begin something that isn’t just wasting around and playing wasting time on the internet or on much else. I want the dedication of Ashirogi Muto from Bakuman. Haha, if only I had a marriage deal like Saikō and Azuki. Maybe that’d do it. Which would be hilarious and unreasonable.

The more I think about the future, the more I think about what I want my first film to be. And thinking that, I keep recalling Makoto Shinkai’s story, creating a great, 25 minute short all on his own.

I want to do something, not quite like that, but much like that, and make films with that old magic in them again. Pretty much the entire film “Castle of Cagliostro” is exactly like that. I want that magic. I want to bottle it, and unleash it on my work when the time is right.

But still, I’m not going to get anywhere simply sitting around and not working on my craft and lazing by the days. Somehow I need to find that old school determination that created these amazing works.

This feels challenging to do alone.

It feels lonely.

But, in the end, I’m not going to be alone, I’m just going to be the best there is, and you need friends and rivals to do exactly that.

That sounds like fun.

Let’s do that. Let’s draw and write stories. Those ARE the things I like doing most. The both share the same feeling. They entrance me and they engulf me into a level of consciousness that I feel most comfortable at.

When I think about success in the creative-minded world, I keep thinking of the work of Zach Weiner, the man behind SMBC. He seems to thrive on time and determination. We started with just a daily webcomic in college, and has since worked his way into making himself one of the biggest names in online comics. He’s had his stuff featured in The Economist and all sorts of news sources, and his stuff is all over the internet.

He doesn’t exactly have much of an online persona besides drawing this comic and doing SMBC Theatre with his friends, and having lots of friends in the web comics community.

An online persona, however, I think of Raocow, who does a daily Super Mario ROM hack daily. He plays 15 minutes or so daily on a hack. While Raocow isn’t very well known, he’s making a living doing art and design things. He gets out on the internet and he has a small yet dedicated and vocal fanbase.

So. The idea is that I should play my character, nothing like what Raocow and becomes a total happy camper or some other personality, but to take a name, stick with it, and work with it, bring out all of your best work in that name. No more of this “re-creating yourself in a name” kind of deals. I mean, this is you forever.

The next step to to have a blog, and then to start working on something. A webcomic would be best for me, seeing that I plan on getting into animation. Then the point is to become dedicated to this project, this online persona, this “you”, and build yourself up. Become better, get people to read your stuff. Become consistent and never be satisfied with just what you have. Keep growing. Write stories and sell some stuff if enough people like your stuff. It’s not about selling out, but growing yourself into something that can sustain yourself, or at least help you a little bit. That’s one way to work the internet.

I do like POV. It means Pieces of Venus. It’s more or less a personal thing, even if I am mostly of Mars. It also can be mistaken for Point of View. And just saying “pov” sounds kind of cool.

I’d like to stick with it.

Next, is to get to work.